Tragedy

I’m so sorry you’re hurting. 🙁

All of us make bad choices. If our salvation depended on the choices we’ve made then no one could be saved. Glory to God that He is the One who saves!

If you believe you sinned by marrying the wrong person, please don’t forget the parable of the Prodigal Son – he was out of control with all the things he did, but when he came to himself and truly repented of his wrong, his father was waiting for him WITH OPEN ARMS. He waits for each of us to repent, even if we sin again and again. While we still draw breath it’s never too late to return. Never.

I will pray for you.

I am so sorry for what you and your family are dealing with, but I’m going to be straightforward.

Whether you think you married the wrong person is really irrelevant now if he is a good husband, no abuse or adultery (and even those can be overcome if both if you repent).

I haven’t heard you speak about what kind of man your husband is and what type of father; you’ve only focused on yourself.

What matters is now. You have children, you are in holy matrimony, but if you’re not careful, you may destroy your family, which isn’t of G-d, with this way of thinking because it will affect the way you treat him as a husband and father.

If y’all need counseling, get it.

But, most importantly, you get help. My husband suffers from schizoaffective disorder and nothing about G-d and life made sense until he got professional help.

G-d is always available to you and will forgive all, but your thinking and views of Him and your marriage may be negatively affected by an illness which needs treatment. The sooner you get help for your thinking and, if needed, medicine for the chemicals that are out of wack, the sooner you can deal with the issues you’re struggling with.

G-d loves you desperately, and I bet your family does, too; and they want you to be free from this depression, and wrong thinking about yourself, your life, family, and G-d.

Please call (or if you cannot, then ask a friend or  family member) to make an appt with a certified therapist or psychiatrist who has been trained in cognitive behavior therapy methods. You can find certified therapists and psychiatrists who are Christians.

I hope no one takes this the wrong way, but if you are suffering with a mental illness, there is no amount of rebuking of Satan that will get you better.

Consider more of G-d’s love, yourself, and your family who need a healthy wife and mother. Please get professional help.

Satan is the Accuser, don’t listen to him! Jesus is Divine Mercy, He runs after His lost sheep! I would suggest that you read a good book on deliverance like, Unbound by Neal Lozano. It sounds like you’re in a real spiritual battle.

HSmomof3,

I am sorry for your struggle!  I am familiar with John MacArthur and have read many of his books!  While I always caution people to never let another book take the place of the Bible, there are other books that can be beneficial when they line up with the word of God!  With that said, I have not read that specific book.  Do you mind telling me what the exact quote was that you are basing your comments on?

My heart breaks for you. Luke 9:62 is not about losing the ability to be saved. It is a current action. Are you choosing to constantly look back today? Choose to put your hand to the plow and don’t look back-TODAY! Those parables aren’t meant to say that those people are past the point of receiving salvation but that they are choosing to put other things above God at that moment. We have all put things above God at various points in our lives. We have all put our hand to the plow and looked back at some point. All have sinned and come short of the glory of God. Remember, in the story of the rich young ruler, Jesus said all things are possible with God. Jesus had not fulfilled the law yet. He has now! We are saved by grace through faith! It’s not about what you’ve done in the past. It’s about what you choose to do today.

Please don’t read something you found on google. Stick to the word of God. Go read the epistles. Read Acts. Read Romans. Go through the new testament again and again. Saturate your mind with the word of God not the word of man. Remember to always take scripture in context and to base your understanding on scripture not feelings.

Your beliefs in this area truly are not scriptural. I love John Macarthur and I can’t help but think you must have taken something said in his book the wrong way.

We can’t go on what we “feel like” God showed us. This can be so subjective to our emotions, to hormones, to life circumstances. We can get very confused about what God might be showing us. He has already revealed Himself through His word and He will never show us anything that contradicts His word. The thoughts you are having are not in alignment with His word, therefore they are not from God.

It sounds like your husband is a wonderful man.

Phillipians 3:12-14

“Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.”

Forget those things which are behind and reach for the things that are before you!

I do think you should seek biblical counseling regarding this issue. It sounds like the enemy has been feeding you a line of baloney for quite a long time now. It may take some time for your mind to be renewed in this area. Keep turning to scripture to find God’s will.

Nothing has happened to you; you’ve made choices in your life, like all of us, right and wrong ones.

Have you sought accountability for your thoughts? From your husband and pastor?

I also concur above that you not let your feelings determine these things. Our emotions are a part of us, but they DO NOT determine truth, and are easily deceived.

Lean on your husband, stop googling. Get a trained (preferably seminary trained, too, to handle your theological questions) counselor who also is trained in cognitive behavioral therapies. Your view for why you are depressed is too subjective, you need outside help. There is wisdom in counsel.

Your husband is there for you to lean on and be supported by, as well as give you leadership.

I strongly second what Kelley said directly above.