I can totally relate to your situation.
Not saying that your son has a diagnosis, but this is similar to what we saw with our 3rd child, who is now 11, and was diagnosed with Asperger’s (high functioning autism) 3 years ago. It was good to have a “name” for this behavior so I didn’t have to blame myself (which I did…”if only I was a better mother, etc). I had many well-meaning people tell me I wasn’t disciplining him enough or in the right way. I tried everything but nothing worked.
Before he was diagnosed, his behavior was so horrible, I was ashamed to tell anyone but very close friends who I knew would pray. All I could see was him in jail. He’d come after me with knives, tell me he wanted to kill me or his siblings. He would go into screaming rages and kick and hit me. I’d have to literally hold him down and pray over him to calm him down. He would show no remorse at all for saying or doing horrible things, and often he would do these in public, like at the store. So many times I’d have to walk out of the store in humiliation.
Do not underestimate the power of praying for wisdom for this child. It is said that some of the children that are the hardest to handle turn out the best because they are so prayed for. And the power of a mother’s prayers crying out to the Lord are never left unheard. I cried out to the Lord for 6 long years (since he was 3 years old and started having strange behaviors) before He gave me the answer. It doesn’t mean He doesn’t hear you. Think of the parable of the widow and the unjust judge (Luke 18). Sometimes He uses the silence to build our trust in Him.
We found out in the last year after doing lots of biomedical treatments that his autism was caused from mercury poisioning from his vaccines. We have been doing a wonderful low dose chelation (to pull out the mercury) and I am getting my son back slowly.
One of the first things we tried when he was first diagnosed was to get him off anything artifical….no dyes, no food coloring (ie Red Lake 40, etc), no MSG, no nitrates or nitrates (found in lunchmeat and hot dogs) no THBQ, BHT, no vanillin (artifiicial vanilla with an “n”). If I didn’t know what the ingredient was, I didn’t buy it. This change made a HUGE difference in his hyperness and aggressiveness. The change was incredible, so much so that once when I gave him some purple-colored cough medicine, thinking it wouldn’t make a difference, he went crazy for a week afterwards! There is more information if you look up the Feingold Diet
Feel free to email me off-line. You are not alone. Don’t blame yourself…the world we live in, the food we eat, is full of toxins that cause these behaviors. You need all your energy to get him well.
Nanci
