My husband is with patients today so I can’t reach him easily.
My local friends are involved with a high powered vbs all week.
And I just found out my mom was admitted to the hospital (again) last night on her 61st birthday while visiting her aunt away from her hometown.
Fret not yourself …I love that phrase. Trust. Do not worry. Lay it all at the cross. Mom has reoccurring pancreatitis as a complication from other things. She almost died 2 years ago (I mean really–when an er nurse heard what she had from my aunt the nurse offered condolances as everyone always dies from that…really…she was shocked when my aunt clarified and said my mom had survived.)
Mom has been through so much physical suffering and it has refined her…it has been amazing to watch. She says she doesn’t worry any more…she keeps laying it at the cross. Now she is so far away–opposite ends of the us, unreachable–no way to get to her, and suffering again. And I need to lay HER at the cross. And it is hard.
Please pray for her (Janet) and for me. I am 41, and I am so juvenille. I want my mommy. I want to be able to have our chats. I’ve been doing better mentally and emotionally and spiritually and even physically…and I haven’t had a chance to tell her about it. I sent pics last night of the children and the birthday boy’s celebration…and I want her to see them. I’m so selfish and self centered! She could come right out of this again. Or not. The docs have expressed that one day she just won’t. We never know when–it all hits so fast.
Thanks for listening. I needed to communicate just so that I could keep moving–4 littles don’t stop just because you’ve been hit in the gut.
I will be thinking and praying for you and your Mom throughout the day, Jo. I do not believe that you are being juvenile. You know what my grandmother said when my great grandmother passed away? She said, “now I am an orphan.”. She was in her seventies when she said this. What you are feeling is a normal, even God-given connection to your mother and it is good that you feel this. Just know that God Himself can and will fill that void of “Mommy” in your life when and if the time comes.
Jo you are not alone – I am 56 and miss my mummy more than I can say – there is no other relationship like it and I find myself needing her advice and her shulder nearly every day. I lost my mum in 2006 and my dad in 2009 and I feel like a little child, and an orphan a lot. God is my comfort though and he did see me through that time when I lost her and my dad, and he is still my great comfort, but I would still like my mummy back..and my dad..it is not selfish it is natural. Prayers for you and especially your mum and also a big hug for you. Linda
Thank you ladies for your prayers and support and company today. You’ve been a blessing to me.
I just got to talk with my Mom! They have gotten her stable enough to get out of the hospital tonight so she can get home to her regular doctors…she’s a very complex case. Praise God! She also had a talk with me about keeping her at the foot of the cross…the only place she wants to be…to let her go when it is time and all that. Lord give me strength.