I totally understand. I’m an oldest child, and I have had more anxiety in my life over doing things the “right” way, and recently I have had an epiphany that with many things in life there isn’t only one “right way.” I am so grateful that he placed people in my life at just the right time to introduce me to Charlotte Mason right at the beginning of our family’s homeschool education. I feel blessed to be able to glean from her wisdom as a wise & godly educator and to glean from the wisdom of other hs moms here at SCM & in my community.
Just know that the Lord has blessed you with wisdom & unique gifts and abilities that make you the right mom & educator for your children. You go, girl.