Praise God!

I was sent for a STAT CT Scan yesterday, b/c something was still not right 11 days post op.  My pain level was debilitating, and I could not stand, walk, sit up straight, lie down flat or on side, or take a deep breath without intense pain.  Even if I found the perfect semi reclined position, I could not sleep through that much pain.  The docs were all saying, 11 days post op, I should be sore, tender, and not have stamina.  But I should be able to move and do normal lighter duties.

Well, right before I went to the CT Scan I fell hard into a seated position onto something solid forcefully bending in half.  I screamed in pain, and immediately went to having dry heaves –my response to pain that is over the top for me.  Once that passed, I sat up and thought, “Do I feel better?  Am I able to sit straighter?”  But then the pain returned viciously, and I went and had the CT Scan done still limping around in pain.

This morning, I woke late, a new woman.  The pain was seriously diminished.  I could move.  I reached for a glass above my head without thinking, and then stared at it, thinking, I would have doubled over, half way up yesterday.  I am moving more easily, can bend over, am walking taller and straighter.  I am sore and tender.  I can handle tender, tender is nothing after what I just went through!

I spoke with my nurse in law, and she said that it was possible that I had an adhesion or a bit of scar tissue that was connecting two things inside that was restricting my movement and pulling me so hard as to cause that wicked deep pain.  And that when I fell, it could have just torn loose and freed me.

Around lunch today, I got a call saying the CT Scan was normal for post op.

I am again amazed at God.  When I fell, I did not think it was a great thing.  I internally yelled at myself wondering what further damage I had inflicted, etc. 

Yet, if I had fell, after the CT Scan, instead of before, they would probably be telling me that I had to have another surgery to go back in there to separate whatever had stuck together.  

He works all things together for our good!  Praise God from whom all blessings flow.

The last few days, I literally thought I might die.  The pain was incredible.  Night before last, I was reminded that what we have right now is what we need.  He always gives us what we need, so whatever we have right now, for His purposes, we need.  A very profound thought that I keep trying to hang on to.  And I resubmitted my will to His.  I laid my husband and my children and my life in HIS hand, and said Your will be done. And I rested there.

Today, I feel like I am finally going to recover from this 7 week ordeal, like a long pause in my life.  And I praise God, for His care and His attention to the smallest of details.  I praise God for His amazing promise to work all to our good!  

Thank you all for your prayers and support during this very hard trial.

May we all keep our focus on what really matters!

Jo