I was thinking I need some encouragement from you wonderful, understanding ladies!
Here's the thing.
I'm so tired!!! Six or seven years ago I had Mono and I've never been the same. I get tired a lot; but lately, it's almost unbearable. I have several things going on that contribute to this, and I wondered what some of you would do.
Just to list:
I have an 18 yr old son with Lyme disease and maybe mono. We're looking at at least a year to get better we hope, but in the meantime, he can't even take a walk with us for sore muscles--he's always been a very strong, muscular, exercising guy.
I have a 10 yr old having major anxiety and panic attacks every day.
I have a husband that's an airline pilot by default and we're hating it, but don't know what to do to keep him home. That's been going on 3 years.
I have a 12 yr old daughter that would like to control the universe.
I have an 8 yr old son that is very sensitive to stress around him--which is plentiful lately. And he misses Daddy terribly.
He also has recently not found the pleasure in reading that he had before and can't seem to pay attention when I read to him/them. And my 10 yr old just can't listen, because she has to see things.
Everyone's behind in math-some very behind.
So, we've been having school for 4 weeks now, and we can NEVER get it done. We haven't done half of what I've planned in a day yet. I really don't plan too much, so that's not the problem.
I can't get up before them in the morning, and now my 18 yr old can't either. I had him teaching science to them, and he's had to stop that for a while because it wears him out.
I've actually thought lately that I would find some way of schooling that doesn't involve me! That isn't possible and it's really no fun either. But I'm wondering if I should get them a pile of workbooks or something.
Oh, I get migraines too, and so the other day I went to the bookstore to get a couple workbooks for when I just can't lift my head. So I started out to get several, and I got disgusted. I did get two, but I bet I never use them.
So how far behind can we get before I worry. I mean, my 18 yr old was always very far ahead and easy to work with. So I've never had this experience. I mean he's 5 years older than the next sibling, but she's only in 6th grade and she'll be 13 in a couple months. She isn't doing nearly the work my oldest did even when he was 2 or 3 years younger than she is. I generally don't like to compare, but it's getting ridiculous.
I just have to move so slowly, and it seems that nothing is getting done. The kids don't seem to know anything! They can never give me even a passable narration. My 12 yr old knows what we've read, but she never puts herself into it--you know, just facts. The other 2 just have no idea what's been going on during our reading. I think they need to read everything themselves, but my youngest cried today when he had to read just a page from the Oxford First Ancient History because he couldn't tell me anything about it after I read it.
He hit a tough spot in his daily personal scripture reading a few months ago, and it seems to have affected his love of reading.
Maybe I just need someone to tell me that they won't end up totally stupid and have no idea what's going on around them ever!
Sorry to go on and on, but I knew you all would understand if anyone would.