I am feeling lost and alone right now in my marriage when it comes to our faith. I feel like God is left me to do this alone. Yet, I have cried out to him, "He is yours Lord there is nothing I can do for him, it's all up to you. I can not keep trying with him. I only need to work on me and the children. He is yours to have and I release all to you."
I have grown in leaps and bounds compared to my dh in the years (14) since we have married. He being not Catholic (Lutheran) came fully aware of my hearts desires.
After the economy went down so did his contentment and happiness.
He wants perfect children. To be seen and not heard. To just know what and when to do it. To behave at all times. I have failed to train my children to do this. And God has finally put it in my face. As of yesterday, that was the last time my dh will be attending church with me and our children. He is done, he will not sit in another service with our children. They wiggle, they ask questions (quietly but ask), and they have to go potty at least 2 times a month (on Sundays). My kids are 13yr - 20 months (and there is 7 kids in all). The 13 yr old is not and never the problem. The others all have there moments and the little ones are constant. I have always good plans to sit and work on sit time, blanket time, quiet voice, interrupting.. but life seems to take me from these things... this includes my dh calling from work to ask me to do something or needs to talk (self-employee) to relieve his tensions of the day.
So now he is done. On top of the kids our church is at least 2 if not 3 Sundays a month asking for a second collection. We are in no position to do this and it is constantly being pushed down our backs. My dh wants to just go to church, sit and listen, and leave feeling good. Not that he couldn't do enough.
All this to say please pray for me as I discern what and where to go. Do I seek a new parish (though I love this parish) while he is not with us and see if the grass would be greener else where? Do I just keep going to the parish I know and love (as do my kids)?
I will add he just stated that he is not going he can't tolerate the kids in church and will not be embarrassed again. I am free to do as I want and take the kids but he's done. So he is not asking me to not go there is no issues there.
Thanks for the prayers. Blessings Misty