Tonight is the St. Louis Homeschool Expo curriculum fair. I have had my list of things to buy, vendors to meet and products to see, ready for about two weeks now. I have my money saved and a babysitter lined up for my four boys. BUT... my son has come down with a fever and is sick. My hubbie goes to college on Thursday nights and can't help out. My mother in law is available any night EXCEPT Thursday nights.... I know that I need to be home with my little guy but I am still feeling so bummed. I really was looking forward to going. It always feels like anytime I try to do something just for me, it never works out. I know I am being selfish...but it's my party and I'll cry if I want to.